I AM IN PANIC MODE.
I just saw a picture that someone took of me when I wasn’t “posing” or “sucking in” or “standing up tall” and all I have to say is: HOW DID I GET TO THIS PLACE? I didn’t even recognize that woman. She looked tired and stressed and heavy. She looks… (gulp) middle aged.
Ever have a moment like this? Can you even relate?
Last summer I was in a BIKINI. (True.) Thanks to eating clean and following the Body For Life principals I lost tons of weight and was in a bikini for the first time since I was 16. My brother actually told me that he was worrying that I was loosing too much weight. Let me repeat that: LOOSING TOO MUCH WEIGHT. I had to laugh. In all my life no one ever said that to me. Ha!
And now. Well, now I am working full time plus freelancing plus suffering from a running injury while raising two little men and taking care of a house, a husband, one dog, four fish and one bearded dragon. Not to mention writing a blog, dealing with social schedules, sports leagues and trying desperately to keep in touch with my friends.
Talk about loosing your mojo. Now, granted, I have been working slowly but surely towards regaining my “hip factor.” (As my girlfriend calls it.) I’ve been focusing on expanding my horizons and experiencing new places and taking mini-adventures. I’ve also been running again, albeit sporadically.
I guess I just needed something to spur me into action. WELL NO LONGER.
Look out people.
I look at that picture and only one thought comes to mind, “Oh, HELL no!”