When I found out about the tragedy at Sandy Hook Elementary School I was eating lunch with my sister in the elementary school in which she works.

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The news came in the form of a text from a friend. It was jarring.

As I watched the story evolve over the hours and days following, my emotions have ranged from shock, to sorrow, to anger and disbelief.

It is so hard to comprehend the loss of life involved. The babies who won’t be coming home to their parents. The administrators who lay down their lives for the innocents. The fact that Christmas is barely a week away.

It is all so inconceivable.

I see friends posting on Facebook about the tragedy. They are searching for answers and expressing outrage over gun control, mental illness and the exploitation of children by the news media.

We are all in disbelief, all completely rocked by this senseless act of violence.

I live in Maryland, miles away from the tragedy, my own children tucked safely in their beds at night. My family’s existence goes on as if nothing happened –  making dinner, doing laundry, preparing for the holidays. All the while, in the back of our minds, are the faces of the many families in Connecticut who are living these same moments in a deep, desperate sorrow.

It breaks our hearts.

As a mother, this tragedy has affected my soul in a deeper way.

I can’t stop thinking about it.

I cry often.

Most of all, I want to fix it. I want to do something. I want to help.

But the reality is… there is no way to help or fix the situation.

All I can think of is prayer. So that is what I do. I pray.

I’m wondering if a showing of love and support might be of benefit to that community. Perhaps sending a card? A letter?

It is the only tangible thing I can think of.

If you are also searching for a way to support that community and are interested in taking action in that same way, below is the address for the school:
Sandy Hook Elementary School
12 Dickenson Drive
Sandy Hook, CT 06482 .

Maybe the thoughts and prayers of families and children around the world will help them in their process of healing. And maybe it will help us in ours as well.